Sometime life throws the toughest problems at you, and then leaks out the answers as well. You just need to be looking carefully enough, and you find them, lying there quietly on the floor, looking up at you and waiting to be picked up.

That’s what happened today. I was confused about the career decision the whole day. I had already told my friends about it, something that I have a habit of doing, and they were pressurising me the whole day to come through. But somewhere down the line, I was not convinced whether I was going to be doing the right thing or not. Obviously, there are pros and cons of both the options that lie in front of me, both short term and long term.

Finally, when I was heading back home, I got a panic call. I usually don’t get any panic calls, so when it happened today my car was instantly doing over 100 kmph. There was mayhem, disarray and absolute despondency when I reached home. Soon I was consoling grown ups as if I was one myself, reassuring them that I was there and that I would take care of everything. ‘Take care of everything’.

Another thing happened today. I saw a man feel very helpless and broken. That’s something that never ever happens. He’s been through a lot in life – a crippling accident, setback in career, loss of family, angioplasty, etc etc.. but I’ve rarely seen him break. He’s always one of those who endures in silence. There’s a downside to it as well, which is that years of hardship and bearing in silence has made him stoic. He doesn’t communicate his feelings most of the times. Sometimes when you would want him to as well. But all that silence was not there today. I saw him admit that he was breaking, crumbling under all the stress. It was heartbreaking for me to watch it.

(Note :  Everybody has problems in life, I’m sure even you do, and you probably don’t want to read about other people’s problems. That is entirely your opinion and while it is not given a fuck about, it is still respected)

Anyway, back to the point that I was trying to make about life giving out the answers to its own problems – this was how it happened. The scene back home answered the question about what should I do about life and the whole career thing. Now things are very clear. No more confusion from now on (also for now) regarding this.